Friday, December 19, 2008
i've not been myself lately.
very disappointing that i've allowed myself to deterioate to this state.
and the reasons why i've turned into this beast are due to several factors.
probably the lack of sleep,
and the build up of stress due to all of the responsibility to call and organise outings.
i screwed my brain up badly.
to the point where i cannot remember anything that anyone said recently.
i just have too many things to do and attend to.
last but not least, probably the inability to tell anyone about this.
its like a balloon stuffed with water.
but after awhile, the balloon is unable to hold the volume of the water and bursts.
i don't really want to tell anyone because i know the root problem of it all.
hard to tackle the problem cause i'm unable to do it.
anyway, i think i have to put a stop to my endless spending.
no more shopping for me.
just have to stick to my usual clothes to wear when i go out.
went to topman today to buy a shirt.
yellow colour >.< wonder when i will ever wear it. watching the day the earth stood still 2mr. i think i have too many groups of people to go out with. :( ahhhh and its so close to getting our results back! omgomgomg. next week is alr farewell. these 4 years have passed so quickly, its saddening for me to have not been able to grasp the times i spent with my friends. and the several ( well an awful lot) of stupid imbecile mistakes i've made with i've come to regret but its been a rollercoaster ride with more downs than ups.
i don't really know why.
but i feel very dumb.
my memories are fading.
no matter how many times i tell myself.
it isnt going to happen.
somehow or another
i still cant get over it.
i just can't seem to muster the strength to accept reality.
very disappointing that i've allowed myself to deterioate to this state.
and the reasons why i've turned into this beast are due to several factors.
probably the lack of sleep,
and the build up of stress due to all of the responsibility to call and organise outings.
i screwed my brain up badly.
to the point where i cannot remember anything that anyone said recently.
i just have too many things to do and attend to.
last but not least, probably the inability to tell anyone about this.
its like a balloon stuffed with water.
but after awhile, the balloon is unable to hold the volume of the water and bursts.
i don't really want to tell anyone because i know the root problem of it all.
hard to tackle the problem cause i'm unable to do it.
anyway, i think i have to put a stop to my endless spending.
no more shopping for me.
just have to stick to my usual clothes to wear when i go out.
went to topman today to buy a shirt.
yellow colour >.< wonder when i will ever wear it. watching the day the earth stood still 2mr. i think i have too many groups of people to go out with. :( ahhhh and its so close to getting our results back! omgomgomg. next week is alr farewell. these 4 years have passed so quickly, its saddening for me to have not been able to grasp the times i spent with my friends. and the several ( well an awful lot) of stupid imbecile mistakes i've made with i've come to regret but its been a rollercoaster ride with more downs than ups.
i don't really know why.
but i feel very dumb.
my memories are fading.
no matter how many times i tell myself.
it isnt going to happen.
somehow or another
i still cant get over it.
i just can't seem to muster the strength to accept reality.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:16 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, December 12, 2008
argh!
what a rainy day it was.
when we reached redhill.
it was pouring till it flooded.
so me michelle and sara took a cab there.
it was so flooded to the point where
as the cars drove by,
it splashed water on the cab.
and it went as high as the taxi.
so the cab was getting a bath haha.
the day was rather fun.
laughed alot in the train.
life is getting more interesting and im excited
argh, my maple char in private server got wiped out! again. zzz
but lol nvm ba.
starting another character would kill more time.
judging from the lack of things i do at home.
its for the greater good haha
xEuphoria ftwzxc!
im so missing everyone.
or rather just a group of people.
because recently, i've been neglecting a lot of people.
psps i'll try to make time to keep in contact with you guys. if i can.
tomorrow going shop, again.
but on a much smaller scale. just buying 2 t-shirts.
have to save money though,
to get gifts for people.
and estee, i miss the 1st tour more than the 2nd. zzz
mai lame can.
committing one mistake after another.
when will this vicious repetition stop?
heh... and the last one was thinking that this "friendship" could ever work out.
silence~
what a rainy day it was.
when we reached redhill.
it was pouring till it flooded.
so me michelle and sara took a cab there.
it was so flooded to the point where
as the cars drove by,
it splashed water on the cab.
and it went as high as the taxi.
so the cab was getting a bath haha.
the day was rather fun.
laughed alot in the train.
life is getting more interesting and im excited
argh, my maple char in private server got wiped out! again. zzz
but lol nvm ba.
starting another character would kill more time.
judging from the lack of things i do at home.
its for the greater good haha
xEuphoria ftwzxc!
im so missing everyone.
or rather just a group of people.
because recently, i've been neglecting a lot of people.
psps i'll try to make time to keep in contact with you guys. if i can.
tomorrow going shop, again.
but on a much smaller scale. just buying 2 t-shirts.
have to save money though,
to get gifts for people.
and estee, i miss the 1st tour more than the 2nd. zzz
mai lame can.
committing one mistake after another.
when will this vicious repetition stop?
heh... and the last one was thinking that this "friendship" could ever work out.
silence~
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:52 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, December 11, 2008
i didn't have the time to blog the past week.
because i'm rather lazy.
but nothings really changed.
the constant leaving of my house has left a hole in my parents pockets.
but oh well,
it beats me rotting at home and watching anime.
i still have a schedule of activities to carry out.
with different groups of people.
im just looking forward to the several trips to watch twilight.
and nth else after that.
having keyboard pract tomorrow.
it's going to be a long day.
have to stay there for 2+hrs.
bah, oh well.
i apologise to anyone who i may have neglected.
just to lazy.. zzz
trying to hard.
whatever.
don't expect too much from something which you have put effort in,
cause most of the time, it doesn't turn out the way you hoped.
silence~
because i'm rather lazy.
but nothings really changed.
the constant leaving of my house has left a hole in my parents pockets.
but oh well,
it beats me rotting at home and watching anime.
i still have a schedule of activities to carry out.
with different groups of people.
im just looking forward to the several trips to watch twilight.
and nth else after that.
having keyboard pract tomorrow.
it's going to be a long day.
have to stay there for 2+hrs.
bah, oh well.
i apologise to anyone who i may have neglected.
just to lazy.. zzz
trying to hard.
whatever.
don't expect too much from something which you have put effort in,
cause most of the time, it doesn't turn out the way you hoped.
silence~
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:06 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
back from tkss concert.
quite nice ba.
esp the anime songs and the spirited away song.
haha the actions quite amusing.
but my neck kinda pain
cause we sitting at the side.
then must turn our heads x.x
woke up at about 9 then chionged to market place bball court.
LOL at moritz. he didnt bring the ball.
so had to wait for like 1 hr?
cause he locked himself out of the house and his dad had to go pick it up from the house.
played for like 30mins? then my arm died on me.
cause had to fan and fan and fan ytd.
then cramped.
left the house at 1.30.
supposed to meet chong at 1 x.x
ate at the kopitiam at tm.
walaoeh the auntie gave me a mountain of rice!
so cool la! being small has its advantages too u know :D
ehhh met up with estee and proceeded to marina sq.
walked around and bought stuff.
wei chong bought alot. i just bought for a certain someone. x.x haha
met iffah and watched four christmases.
damn funny! go watch it! haha
then went to pick judaxil up at the mrt station.
and ate at ljs.
then went to esplanade.
the esplanade was HUGE!
after the concert.
went back to tamp and ate mac.
stayed there till about 11.45? and we left.
apparently there were 2 grps of ppl
1 grp was dead and 1 was alive. x.x
mine was dead obviously ahah.
we were all tired i guess.
wish that they will be another such outing :)
it brings back memories seeing the different batches of people talking and laughing again.
'Cause it's you in my arms tonight.
i don't need an imitation.
quite nice ba.
esp the anime songs and the spirited away song.
haha the actions quite amusing.
but my neck kinda pain
cause we sitting at the side.
then must turn our heads x.x
woke up at about 9 then chionged to market place bball court.
LOL at moritz. he didnt bring the ball.
so had to wait for like 1 hr?
cause he locked himself out of the house and his dad had to go pick it up from the house.
played for like 30mins? then my arm died on me.
cause had to fan and fan and fan ytd.
then cramped.
left the house at 1.30.
supposed to meet chong at 1 x.x
ate at the kopitiam at tm.
walaoeh the auntie gave me a mountain of rice!
so cool la! being small has its advantages too u know :D
ehhh met up with estee and proceeded to marina sq.
walked around and bought stuff.
wei chong bought alot. i just bought for a certain someone. x.x haha
met iffah and watched four christmases.
damn funny! go watch it! haha
then went to pick judaxil up at the mrt station.
and ate at ljs.
then went to esplanade.
the esplanade was HUGE!
after the concert.
went back to tamp and ate mac.
stayed there till about 11.45? and we left.
apparently there were 2 grps of ppl
1 grp was dead and 1 was alive. x.x
mine was dead obviously ahah.
we were all tired i guess.
wish that they will be another such outing :)
it brings back memories seeing the different batches of people talking and laughing again.
'Cause it's you in my arms tonight.
i don't need an imitation.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:09 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, December 01, 2008
woke up late.
sorry mervyn for making u wait so long >.<
ahhh though i was late we still managed to reach there on time.
keyboard training was sian.
cause we didnt learn anything
and spent the entire hour practicising.
then, headed to pasir ris.
we bought our food.
gosh. only 8 people turned up >.<
and we didnt book the bbq pit.
kinda free loaded and saved 20 bucks.
so we just walked to the far end and took pit 61
but its was fun. ironically thanks to wen feng.
hahaha next time its gonna be seoul garden!
and hope its a more sucessful outing than this one.
like what chester said, its sad that the class is separating.
never gonna forget bout u guys and all the wonderful times spent together.
and its gonna be a very fun day today!
gonna meet iffah, shop with wc and estee.
get to see zerlina and ya kai perform.
and most imptly SHOP! :D
a little piece of heaven : you had my heart, at least for the most part. a7x
silence~
sorry mervyn for making u wait so long >.<
ahhh though i was late we still managed to reach there on time.
keyboard training was sian.
cause we didnt learn anything
and spent the entire hour practicising.
then, headed to pasir ris.
we bought our food.
gosh. only 8 people turned up >.<
and we didnt book the bbq pit.
kinda free loaded and saved 20 bucks.
so we just walked to the far end and took pit 61
but its was fun. ironically thanks to wen feng.
hahaha next time its gonna be seoul garden!
and hope its a more sucessful outing than this one.
like what chester said, its sad that the class is separating.
never gonna forget bout u guys and all the wonderful times spent together.
and its gonna be a very fun day today!
gonna meet iffah, shop with wc and estee.
get to see zerlina and ya kai perform.
and most imptly SHOP! :D
a little piece of heaven : you had my heart, at least for the most part. a7x
silence~
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:21 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities